Category: Just Because

1. Do not kill yourself. Killing yourself is very messy and your friends and family will cry over you. It is not beautiful or brave, and even if it was, you will not be around to see that.

2. Washing your hair is going to be a chore. But you should do it anyway. Because you will feel better about yourself.

3. Get up late. Have a lay in. Sleep past your alarm. You have a very long life ahead of you and for now you should appreciate the cold side of your pillow.

4. He is going to break your heart but he's just another male human who finds it hard to deal with Mondays, too. So in a month you'll wake up and you won't even remember that little scar on his knuckle you kissed.

5. Don't spend hours looking up what your name means on google. Your name is your name and you should go out there and do heroic and good deeds and give your name your own meaning.

6. Don't fight your demons. Your demons are here to teach you lessons. Sit down with your demons and have a drink and a chat and learn their names and talk about the burns on their fingers and scratches on their ankles. Some of them are very nice.

7. Music is good for your soul. Rap music will energise you and boost your ego and pop music will cheer you up. Indie music will make you think and emotional songs will make you cry and think about that boy again. It's healthy.

8. Victim complexes are not attractive. Boys and girls will not date you because you are sad. They are not going to date you and kiss your aching bones and cure you of your dragging depression. Wake up. Take a bath. Do your hair. Be attractive.

9. Sadness is not poetic. Depression is not beautiful. Laying in bed all day and eating too much is lazy and disgusting and it is not tragic or pretty. Get up. Go outside. Let the sun warm your bones. Live.

10. If it makes you happy, buy twenty of it. Dedicate your life to it. Print it on T-shirts and collect things and draw art of it. Do not care what people think. They are the unhappy people you need to avoid. The abuse they will hurl at you is painless compared to how sad they are. Pity them. Remain happy.

11. You are allowed to he angry. But the world is not working against you. The flowers do not bloom for you and when your mother shouts ask her if she is okay instead of thinking she hates you. She never will. The world walks beside you and is silent. It does not trip you up or carry you.

12. Day and night cycles are natural. Humans only sleep at night because we used to avoid predators in the dark because of our poor eyesight. Stay awake until 5am watching bad reality shows. Wake up at 7pm and have breakfast.

13. Eat when you are hungry. Being bored does not constitute a chocolate bar. Sleep when you are tired. Do not mindlessly obey the sleep at night rule. If you are not tired, do not sleep.

Ben and I are hooked on home improvement shows. You name it, we've probably watched it at least once. We have dreams of someday buying the place we're renting from our landlords—as ridiculous as that sounds—and we've lived here long enough that we've come up with some ideas about what we'd do to the place if we owned it and had a large, untapped bank account.

There don't appear to be any glaring structural issues other than one long crack that runs through the concrete floor in the den. The bigger issue is the age of the house (built 1948) and all that date implies: knob and tube wiring, lead paint, asbestos-laden plaster, ancient plumbing lines, and asbestos insulation in the roof are the four that immediately come to mind—all of which would require a complete gutting-to-the-studs to (as Mike Holmes would say)—make it right.

Then there is the physical layout of the house. That is where the fun really starts. We've got so many ideas floating around that I knew I had to get them down in architectural form—even if nothing ever comes of it. (It's important to dream, after all.)

So I fired up AutoCAD and began the task of drawing our little house as it is and how we'd like it to be. Yeah, I'm a little rusty at it, and the latest version of the program does some things quite differently from how I remember it working back in the day, but on the whole I haven't forgotten nearly as much as I thought I had. Of course I haven't gotten into the really technical stuff like dimensioning and cross-hatching and whatnot, and I need to wipe some cobwebs from my basic architectural construction knowledge, but I'm sure it will all come back. If not, I still have my AutoCAD "bible" from years ago that got me out of many a "How do I?" jam even then.

And y'know, it feels damn good to be doing something creative. I didn't realize how much I missed that.

Happy Record Store Day!