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I Dreamt of Aquariums Last Night

It actually started out with watering a plant. It was one of those plants that was rooted in a bowl of water. I was going to top off the bowl when I saw something moving among the rocks and roots. Upon closer examination it was a small crab. “Where did that come from?” As I continued to look, fish and other small creatures appeared. I thought I couldn’t top off the water without messing up the water chemistry.

At some point this bowl transformed into a small fish tank and the angel fish that Ben had bought last year (now living at my sister’s) appeared. “I thought we moved him!” and at the same time realized I really needed to move these animals into something bigger.

While in real life I haven’t set my aquarium back up since the fire (and was discussing with Ben my desire to just get rid of it altogether last week) in the dream I had two large aquariums, both brightly lit with deep blue backgrounds. The smaller one was nearly empty, so I elected to put these “new” creatures in  there. At first the larger one looked barren of life as well, but once I transferred the fish from the plant bowl/tank into the small aquarium, dozens of fish came out of hiding in the larger tank, including a beautiful blue, white and yellow angel fish. (I cried upon seeing him, as I thought I’d lost him forever.)

(I just tried finding a picture online of something similar, but of course this being a dream creature, nothing could be found; apparently that color combination doesn’t exist in the freshwater species.)

I determined long ago that when aquariums appear in my dreams, they are indicative of the general state of my mental and emotional health. When I’ve dreamt of dirty and decrepit tanks, the overwhelming emotion I feel is sadness and guilt that I’ve ignored them for so long.

You would think that after the last eighteen months, aquariums in my dreams would be a disaster, but it was just the opposite. First new growth appeared in an unlikely location and I transferred it into obviously clean and healthy tanks that had been there all along.

I think the meaning is obvious. I know I woke from that dream with a smile on my face.

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All I Can Think Of…

…are the people who threw themselves out of open, broken windows rather than be burned or crushed by the building falling around them.

It seemed we were one people for weeks and months following the attack. Now we can’t even unite in the simplest of ways to prevent our fellow citizens from perishing.

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Pray for Me

It’s up to Beta 6, so that’s a good indicator (at least for me) that it’s stable enough to start using on the daily. I haven’t run into any issues, but I cloned my drive to an external before I installed it…just to be safe. (I learned my lesson many years ago.)

I know there are dozens of changes and improvements, but frankly…I don’t notice a huge change from Big Sur. Maybe it’s because I keep my system pretty slimmed down and don’t tweak a lot of the stuff that tends to break in these betas. Or maybe I’m just not that observant.

And the Safari tabs scandal? Whatever, dude. As long as they work (and they do) I won’t get my panties in a bunch over how they’re displayed.

Everything else I use daily is working just fine. Things seem a little snappier, but that could just be my impression because it’s got a fresh coat of paint.

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1979

A little trip down memory lane for my Phoenix peeps. I can’t say with any certainty that I still have the originals, but I did have the forethought years ago to scan them…

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This is What We’re Dealing With in This Country

And WHY it is so important that Biden did what he did yesterday (even though it won’t affect this particular company because it is apparently so small).

From fuck-customers:

Manager – “With the way things are going it looks like we’ll have to have another shut down in the fall.”

Our senior supervisor- “No … we can’t. If we shut down I’ll lose my house! It’s selfish that you would do that.”

Manager- “Well … 3 staff members have tested positive with covid. We either plan a shut down or we lose our entire staff.”

Senior Supervisor- “We haven’t caught covid, that means we can still work!”

Manager- “So you want us to work until we catch covid? Are you realizing that would endanger their lives? We’re down to a staff of 10 people. 3 of them are over the age of 65, 3 of them are asthmatics and 2 are prone to sickness. You’re our senior supervisor, show some respect and compassion for your team.”

Senior Supervisor- “FUCK THE TEAM! Im concerned about not losing my house!”

So the manager put her on leave. He said she needed to cool down and they would assess her position when she got back. I understand being scared of losing your home, but maybe don’t say “fuck the team” in front of the man that hired you to help and support the team. Also, when we shut down we still get paid by our workplace. During the first shut down they payed us through most of it. We only had to do 1 month of unemployment. Being a little worried financially is worlds better than watching your coworkers die.

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