Some Thoughts About Completing Another Revolution Around The Sun

I'm now officially OLD.

Turning sixty is not the same as turning fifty.

For one thing, I feel it. Fifty was sort of a milestone, but it didn't feel appreciably different than any other birthday. Sixty, however…let's just say many parts of this body that I was never even aware of now ache on a regular basis. Bending over to get anything off the floor is a chore, and if I have to get down on the floor to do something, getting back up again is always an interesting exercise.

My energy level—while back to "normal" from what it was a few months ago—is still shit. I think about going out to wander downtown and take photos like I used to do years ago and I immediately think, "Nah. Not gonna do that." At the same time I know I need to do that if I'm going to avoid having to start buying all my clothing at Destination XL. (My daily after-work bowl of chips-n-salsa is directly to blame; I readily admit that.) But I watch all these home improvement shows on television and think, "Okay, these folks are half my age, but still…where do they get the energy to do that?"

And time. Where has that gone? Thirty years ago how did I somehow manage to find several hours to do nothing but work on my tan every week and still have other interests and a life?

Getting a good night's sleep is a rarity. I don't know if that's directly attributable to age or just general anxiety. Almost every morning since January 2017 my first thought upon waking has been, "What has the asshole in the White House done now?" I'm starting to think that pretty much everyone who didn't vote for the Orange Russian Wig Stand is suffering some degree of PTSD these days, and the damage that he's continuing to do not only to our country's reputation around the world but also to our collective unconscious is going to take a long time to repair—even if he's removed from office tomorrow.

The no-longer-suffering-fools-gladly attitude that sprouted when I turned fifty is now in full bloom, but there is still only so much bullshit you can call out on a daily basis.

I'm now older than either of my grandfathers were when I was born.

I've also developed that "old man shuffle," although truth be told I may have always walked that way and it's only because I've only recently seen myself on video that it's now so obvious. (My parents were forever telling me to "pick up my feet" when I was a kid, and based on the wear patterns on the soles of my shoes I suspect it's always been this way.)

I'm really ready to retire. My sister—five years younger than me!—is retiring at the end of this school year. Lucky bitch. Three friends have also called it quits. I've had enough workplace bullshit; I don't care if your PowerPoint won't open. Despite what you believe, THE WORLD IS NOT GOING TO END BECAUSE OF IT. Unfortunately retirement is still at least five or six years away—more likely ten if I want to get the maximum Social Security benefit available. And that's assuming that Social Security is still a thing at that point…

And I guess that's it.