Voenix Rising

Previously on Battlestar Galactica…

So THIS Is What It’s All About: Ric Hathaway

Ric was another Louie’s regular, although I don’t remember him ever showing up at a GSA meeting. A couple years older (I believe he was 20 or maybe 21 when we met), I was enraptured. On yet another Friday afternoon at the table plans were being made for the evening. Ric turned to me and asked what my plans were. “Just going back to the dorm and watching some television,” I said.

“Posh! Come out with us!”

And by out, he meant Jekyll’s, which billed itself as Tucson’s newest and gayest disco,

“I dunno,” I said. “I’m not much of a going-out kind of person.”

“Well, if you change your mind, here’s my address,” he said, handing me a slip of paper. Tina’s driving and we’re leaving around 9. If you want to come with us, be there and we’ll all go together.”

I walked back to the dorm, butterflies dancing in my stomach. On one hand I was being honest when I’d said I wasn’t much for going out; on the other hand, I desperately wanted to get to know Ric better and yes—I wanted to see what gay life was really like.

The butterflies didn’t dissipate, even when, several hours later I was walking down 4th Street (or maybe it was 5th Street—I honestly don’t remember) to the house he and Tina shared. I knocked on the door and Ric answered, giving me a big hug as I walked in. “Welcome! I’m so glad you decided to go with us. This will be fun tonight!”

I seem to remember one more person joining us—it was probably Don Hines—before we headed out. We all piled in Tina’s big yellow sedan and drove to Oracle & Drachman, where Jekyll’s was located.

At this point, some 42 years later, memories of that evening are little more than a blur, but some things do stand out. I remember paying a three dollar cover charge to get in, but I also remember I was not carded. (At the time legal drinking age in Arizona was 19, and I was still 18.) In fact, I was never carded, except at Maggie’s in Phoenix years later—and then only because the bouncer wanted to know my name. (But that is a story for a future installment.)

Looking back, I’m sure Jeckyll’s would be judged a dive by anyone’s standards then and now, but for me it was absolute magic. I’d never been to a disco before, and here I was in a gay disco. There were men dancing with men, women dancing with women, and lots of people of—as we politely say today—people of indeterminate gender being their own fierce selves.

A wraparound bar greeted you as you walked in. To the right there was a sunken wooden dance floor and DJ booth. To the left was an elevated area with booths and tables.

And the music…I’d never been exposed to music like that before and I was entranced. It was here I first heard Giorgio Moroder’s From Here to Eternity, Themla Houston’s Don’t Leave Me This Way and Cerrone’s Love in C-Minor to name just a few. Disco wasn’t something that had been on my musical radar at all, but it became something that I love to this very day.

Not apologizing.

We stayed until the bar closed that night, and afterward walked down the street to grab an early breakfast at Denny’s. It seemed to be the place to go after the club shut down. Drag queens mingled with leathermen, and we were in the middle of it all. When we were finished eating, Tina and Ric drove me back to my dorm room, my head absolutely spinning.

I don’t remember exactly what happened after that first night out together, but at some point Ric showed up at my door and didn’t leave for a week thereafter. If my encounter with John had left me scratching my head, wondering what all the hoopla was about gay sex, Ric showed me. OMG…Ric took me places I didn’t know existed and left me begging for more.

Ah, youth.

An obvious romance was brewing—at least in my eyes. We spent nights wrapped in each other’s arms, sleeping on blankets in front of the fireplace at this house when we weren’t at my dorm. When he’d left his beat-up army surplus jacket in my room one day, I brought it with me to Louie’s that afternoon to return it and he said, “You like it? Keep it.”

I wore it like a second skin.

But then something happened, and I was left wondering what precipitated it, other than what I now know to be the uncontrollable hormones of young gay men. Ric stopped coming around. We weren’t doing anything together any more. He’d become very hard to get hold of, and when I did he was distant. And then the answer arrived. I was told by someone at the table that he’d been seeing some other boy; someone who was not from GSA or the table. I was crushed. When we finally connected, there were tears. At the time I just didn’t understand. I thought we were something special…

Within weeks after the breakup, I became very ill. My tonsils and under-jaw glands swelled up. I went to Student Health and was diagnosed with mono. (I’d gone all through high school without coming down with the scourge, for obvious reasons, so it came as no surprise it finally hit when it did.)

I’d let my folks know what was going on and they expressed parental concern. I assured them I was in good hands with Student Health and basically spent an entire week in bed, missing every class. (Yeah, I felt that bad.) Shortly after my recovery, I received a very strange missive from my dad. It was an article about upper respiratory gonorrhea that had been clipped from the Phoenix gay paper. On the bottom he’d written in big block letters, “Don’t give him anything but love.”

Now keep in mind this was months before I finally came out to the family, and this left me confused as hell. How did he know? Where and how did he get this article?

The student mailboxes were adjacent to Louie’s, so I didn’t actually open the mail or read it until I was already sitting at the table. I guess my jaw must’ve dropped to the floor because they asked what was going on. “I just got this from my dad,” I said, passing it around the table.

They all agreed: “He knows.”

Next time on Battlestar Galactica…